When your Meditation isn’t working.
Some days (and even weeks) no matter what you do, you cannot settle, the mind like a mad monkey will flit from thought to thought, this is the time to learn patience. Learn to sit still and silent as if snow were falling all around you. Allow it to settle on you on the shell of the body. Practice raising your spine placing one vertebrae over the other, sit a little taller, hands resting lightly on thighs or in your lap, palms facing upward fingers curled gently.
It is a time when the mind won’t turn inward. Neither will it rest. And yet we fight against this, as even in meditation we expect results. My Yoga Teacher would often host visiting Swami’s to teach us the ways of silence. Always our questions would center around why wasn’t my mind stilling? Why did my body rebel when asked to sit still? When only yesterday it seemed to work, patiently they would tell us that even a glimpse of silence is valid.They reminded us that practice and attentiveness are the key words.
We will all come against the obstacles of drowsiness, sometimes even falling asleep.The more you enter into day dreams, or worry over past and present the further you travel from the present moment. Try to gently bring your self back to the present moment with out judging your self. The peak experience Shanti Gowan’s says tells us in her book an Easy guide to Mediation. “Thoughts and feelings emerge from the center of consciousness….and it is to this center that one returns to, consciously during mediation practice.
Ralph Blum authored The book of Runes in which he explains
“You may be powerless to do anything except submit, surrender, even sacrifice some long cherished desire. Be patient, for this is the period of gestation that precedes a birth
“What has been full must be empty; what has increased must decrease.
This is the way of Heaven and Earth. To surrender is to display courage and wisdom.”
The Swamis taught “not this , not that – release the expectations and live in the now.” As we capture glimpses of eternity we are so enthralled that each time we sit for meditation we want that experience again, to be immersed in the peace beyond all understanding. But life is change and movement , we live on a planet of opposites, up down, night day, male female etc, so we must experience the opposite of bliss to know bliss.
How is that possible when we are programmed to achieve.
“The starting point is the self. Its essence is water. Only clarity willingness to change, is effective now….”
And always remember your goal is self transformation.
Little self is our ego , our conscious self. Large Self is the unconscious or Spirit
Lift up your self by your Self
And don’t let the self droop down,
For the Self is the self’s only friend
And the self is the Self’s foe.
Taken from the Sacred Hindu text The Bhagavad Gita. chapter 6 verse 5
The “Gita” is thousands of years old so take heart, many before you have walked this path and known the struggle and felt the frustration, take heart and persist, you will move through this time of gestation to birth a calmer life.The spiritual path of surrender to the moment becomes your doorway to divinity.